Narcolepsy
Monday, October 1st I went to a nearby town to meet with a sleep specialist. As mentioned in an earlier post, I have been dealing with extreme exhaustion for quite some time. Why I never went in sooner was because I thought it was related to my depression. Depression makes you sad, which makes you want to sleep all the time, right? So I in my junior year of college I started meeting with counselors in hopes of treating that.
Things would not go very well. I'd miss appointments because I was so tired. I'd miss class. Miss due dates. Have to cancel on friends. I then became friendless. All this made things even harder and I became sadder.
This is now my seventh year of college. Somehow I ran a business by myself - often times becoming so tired that I'd make myself sick. But I worked full time and only went part time because school was no longer a happy place for me. I knew I needed to go to better my future, but fuck.
Anyway, I met with the sleep specialist to talk about my symptoms. I was pretty nervous because I am on a support group on Facebook on the amount of people saying their doctor doesn't care is appalling. People saying their doctor doesn't listen to them and labels them with something they don't have.
Oofta. Trying really hard to have the focus to finish this.
He strongly believes I have narcolepsy and I will be coming in for my sleep study at the end of the month. I am both nervous and excited and dreading it. Lately, it has been getting so worse, I wonder how in the world I'll be able to have a teaching job. What will I be able to do for work? My cataplexy isn't disabling thankfully - and I've been able to avoid it by avoiding certain instances where I have those emotions that cause it. But I'm freaking out. Just a little.
Things would not go very well. I'd miss appointments because I was so tired. I'd miss class. Miss due dates. Have to cancel on friends. I then became friendless. All this made things even harder and I became sadder.
This is now my seventh year of college. Somehow I ran a business by myself - often times becoming so tired that I'd make myself sick. But I worked full time and only went part time because school was no longer a happy place for me. I knew I needed to go to better my future, but fuck.
Anyway, I met with the sleep specialist to talk about my symptoms. I was pretty nervous because I am on a support group on Facebook on the amount of people saying their doctor doesn't care is appalling. People saying their doctor doesn't listen to them and labels them with something they don't have.
Oofta. Trying really hard to have the focus to finish this.
He strongly believes I have narcolepsy and I will be coming in for my sleep study at the end of the month. I am both nervous and excited and dreading it. Lately, it has been getting so worse, I wonder how in the world I'll be able to have a teaching job. What will I be able to do for work? My cataplexy isn't disabling thankfully - and I've been able to avoid it by avoiding certain instances where I have those emotions that cause it. But I'm freaking out. Just a little.
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